studying for exams

does anyone knows how to stick myself to the chair and study SERIOUSLY for my exam?? It seems like my mind and patience are active only when I enter in the safe/crisis period of time prior the exam… Then my virtue is indeed praised.

I am staying on the chair half an hour then I have to take something to drink, than another 10 minutes and I have to pee, than after 5 minutes, in which ive thought what should I start focus on, I am changing the music…
Finally I realize I am feeling sleepy and I hope that if I am going to sleep, not much just 15 20 minutes, then when I will wake up I will have the most outstanding power to sit on the chair and learn…

In the end all reduces to a couple of nights with no sleep at all and a possible cold - damit is so cold in my room that i have to put a planket on me although the heat is turn on! In the end i will get a cold.. - well as long as the exam is taken that is fine :)

And to those that had problems with "spy sherif" virus, i have some bad news, the virus is not that easy to clean.. another virus got stuck in my PC after is called i386p.sys .. I am not sure what is doing and the removal procedures sound so complicated.. that i guess i will need a full day. good thing that there are such things like google.. and other charitable souls that post their experiences on the net :)

hormones or what?!??!

(please accept my deepest excuses for not having this document in english…however if it comforts you, I can tell you that it is in process of translation and quite soon it will be ready)

X - person that has the reinforced concrete project to do for faculty, he is in the last year at the civil engineering faculty :(
Y - faculty/work colleague and also friend of the above mentioned person – he has the same project to do

X: NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC
Y: ti-a placut filmuletu?
X: care filmulet?
Y: ti-am dat un link
X: nu m-am uitat
X: NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC NU AM CHEF DE NIMIC
X: A BA DA - AM CHEF DE PIERDUT TIMPUL!
X: AM CHEF DE PIERDUT TIMPUL! AM CHEF DE PIERDUT TIMPUL! AM CHEF DE PIERDUT TIMPUL! AM CHEF DE PIERDUT TIMPUL! AM CHEF DE PIERDUT TIMPUL!
Y: http://www.chilloutzone.de/files/05121401.html
Y: uita-te
X: Hai in club A
Y: e super amuzant
X: Hai in fire!!!
Y: vineri
X: stii dupa ce m-am intors acasa s-a intamplat ceva
Y: ce?
X: Stii ca imi trebuie un transformator la incarcatorul de baterii ca este din america
X: si transformatorul ala era unul vechi
X: care nu statea bine in priza si nu facea niciodata contact cum trebuie
Y: si ai dat foc la casa?
X: si atunci, azi cand m-am enervat am incercat sa indrept un piciorusul de la stecher sa stea mai bine in priza
X: si...
X: L-AM RUPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Y: normal....
X: Si ... a trebuit sa ma imbrac sa caut un nou transformator
X: !!!!!!!!!
X: La ALTEX!!!
X: Acolo au cel maqi mic pret!
Y: asa....
X: Si mi-am luat si cuptor cu microunde!
X: Dar... NU AVEAU!!!!
X: "Si... Exista de cumparea in ROmania?" intreb eu..
X: "Nu stiu" m-i se raspunde
X: "Dar ce stii??!??!?!"
Y:
Y: as usual....
X: Am fost apoi pe rand: la Flamingo, la Best Computers, la Depozitul de Calculatoare
X: Nu exista!!!!
X: Si normal ca nu exista suntem in : Romanica!!!
X: Romanica nu exista, Romanica si papica
X: Romanica...
X: Romanica...
Y: pai nu aveai cum sa gasesti la magazine d-astea
Y: mai degraba la alea din tei
Y: cu componente electronice
X: Ultima speranta.. sa ma intorc pe stradutele copilariiei mele, ma scuzati.. ulitele copilariiei mele
X: Pe SMARDAN!
X: Intru la magazinul pe colt, chiar la inceputul starzii
X: "Aveti TRANSFORMATOR!?!??!? !"
X: "Nu"
X: "Dar ce aveti? Aveti priza?"
X: "Da"
X: "Dati-mi o priza!"
Y: ce sa faci cu ea?
X: M-am gandit acasa sa pun in loc de piciorusul rupt un surub - am probat eu acasa si se potrivea numai ca nu prea facea contact cu restul catodului din interiorul transformatorului
X:
X: Dar m-am gandit ca in ultima instanta aceasta idee m-ar salva de la zgomotul si stupiditatea concetatenilor care de obicei merg cu autobuzul si tramvaiul
X: ...
X: deci am luat priza - mai precis un cap de priza fara fir
Y: adica un stecher
Y: nu priza
X: Pai nu stecher e ala care il bagi in priza si care era incorporat in transformator!
X: si care s-a rupt la mine
X: si nu mai puteam sa pun in priza.
X: de aceeea ma gandeam sa iau o priza de aia simpla adica numai 2 gauri si nimic mai mult
X: si sa improvizez eu un catod din surub pentru transformator !!!
X: Ai inteles?!
X:
Y: am inteles
X: OK!
Y: da nu stiu sigur daca e catodul
X: pai este polarizat unul + altul -
X: si nu este asta un catod??
X: cred
X: sau catozii sunt numai in solutii??
X: nu stiu
Y: whatever..
Y: si
Y: te-ai curentat pana la urma?
Y: sau ai dat foc la casa?
X: Am dat 25 de mii de lei!
X: Si zice tanti: "Incercati mai sus pe stanga la Radioul!!!"
X: Da, Radioul este un mic magazinas comunist, amarat si prapadit... cu de toate..
X: inclusiv o tanti de pe aceiasi vreme care sunt sigur ca are copii si sot acasa si nu a auzit niciodata de persoane ca mine!
X: dar draguta!
X: Era si un mic:: Technicutz acolo..
X: cerceta diode si tranzistori..
X: ti-am spus ca are de toate acest magazinas Radioul
X:
X: ))
Y: asa...
Y: si?
X: Si zic: "Nu va suparati" - apelativ tipic bucurestean mostenit de la cei de pe vremea lui raposatu' - pentru ca atunci cand mergeai la alimentara daca se supara nu iti mai dadea nici lapte, sau paine, sau carne, sau orice
X: "Nu va suparati aveti un transformator pentu electrocasnice americane??"
X: "Ca acesta?" Si am scos obiectul pe masa
X: pe tejghea
Y: si, surpriza
Y: da....
X: SI a zis "DA!!!!
X: Si technicutzul: “da merge merge la ce aveti dvs.”
X: ca nu consuma mult un incarcator de baterii!
Y: i-auzi ma, au comunistii de toate
Y: nu?
X: Si l-am luat cu zambetul meu pe fata - zambetul ala de 'na v-am facut pe toti - am transformator!!'
X:
X: "si nu orice transformator - dar transformator pentru chestii facute in America!!!"
X: HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA
Y: ok, get over it!
X: 300.000
X: lei!
X: Si ajung acasa...
X: si la usa jos era gheata... era sa alunec...
X: ma gandeam sa mor acum cu zambetul pe buze...
X: in pisalaul de pe gang...
X: ...
X: nu-i amuzant...
X: dar imediat m-am gandit la MAMA!!!
X: ea chiar ar putea aluneca!!!!
X: ce-ar fi sa dau cu sare??!?!?!
Y: chiar ai avut de lucru....
X: "HA - v-am facut a 2a oara!"
X: Ca mama nu a mai cazut ca am dat cu sare!!!
X: si acum ma simt atat de super ca ma simt ca si cum.... NU AS FACE NIMIC!
X: Nu este superb!!>?!? !
Y: great...
Y:
Y: la mine nu se simte
Y: eu am facut dus
Y: si ma bucur ca am prins apa calda
Y: eu am bucurii mai simple
X: te-am facut deci
X: hahahah a
X: ghahhahahahah
X: te0-am facut
X: Am transformator si mamam nu a alunecat pe cheata
X: super!
Y: si am si dormit
Y: uitasem...
Y:
X: si acum ca sa ma simt mai putin super: lucrezi??!?!
Y: inca nu
Y: dar o sa...
X: Ce bine hai in fire!!!
X: Hai in fire !!!
X: Hai in club a
X: Hai la ABBA
Y: nu cred...
X: HAi la...
Y: vineri poate
X: Hai la..
X: hai la...
X: hai l;a
X: hai la
X: lalalallala
X: lalalla a
X: kakakaka
X: kakakak
X: akkakkakak a

..be one with nature

to lay your head on the grass and listen how it is growing, to look up to the sky and hear the clouds how are changing..

To feel the strength of mountains that rises above the clouds and the will of water that shape them

to see how the slippery, rounded rocks are moving deep in the earth were no shadows ever enter…

Trojan story - modern version

This is totally shit… I guess that the zen stage had left me.

I was trying to run this program on my computer and since I could do it because I didn’t knew how to manage the serial number I started searching the internet for some help.. BAD IDEA.. I had found a very strange looking site – just like a hacker might do and I tried to download something and all my system got viruses….

I started searching for anti-virus programs on the internet. I am downloading 3 programs.

I find out that one of them is actually a malware: spy sheriff – that is playing like a normal spyweare soft but in fact is deleting data and do all sort of bad stuff…

It seemed actually a bit dubious from the very beginning. I first run it without knowing what is and then I wanted to see if it is really a virus soft and googled its name. Then I found out from a forum is a Trojan program!!!!!!

Jesus!

I am downloading the info how to get rid of it. Great! I run the safe mode run the program is ok. I am now downloading another virus scan which will take some time. Meanwhile my project is staying in the same stage!!!!

I am feeling so non-zen.

Hope no data was deleted and I will be able to clean everything!

Now i had succesfully instaled ETABS - the program that triggered all this, and is working properly! :)) But i am so behind running my work and my project.

Right track!

This week I had tried an unexpected feeling .
I was at the office and suddenly realized that I am satisfied with my life. A fulfilling feeling that made me proud being in my own skin.
.. a deep inner peace. I had never felt like this before.

I think I am on the right track.