please ... remember... how .. to fly...

the dutch anthem

We put the 2 boxes on the table we open them and I share them in 3 equal portions… they taste really normal.. a bit dry I would say but otherwise nothing special.. some parts are still having mud on them.. we drink some water after..

Then we sit on the coach and start watching tv… its about 1800 and we are watching a telenovela – a Dutch telenovela.. I mean not that I had insisted – I was pretty “whatever.. let time pass.. let them start work.. ” . It was she that insisted it was her favorite show…

I am sitting next to her on the coach… it’s about half an hour since we ate them and I start feeling the first reactions - laughing sensations.. I feel it builds up… I am thinking of positive stuff (as I had been advised by my mates) of mountains heights – of some landscapes in the Fagaras mountains I have on the backside of my eyes still, and some parts from this year’s Slovenian adventure.. The “Bird of Prey” – FatBoySlim remix is creeping inside my head… the FREEDOM sensation… an uncontrollable feeling of laughing is overgrowing in me…. The telenovela is stupid.. I can’t understand a thing and her reaction is making me laughing even more.. she is completely fixed on the screen with her mouth opened…

In one frame a women is laying in the bed speaking over her mobile.. she is trying to find a number she had forgotten.. the next frame is a bitchy women that is not working and her boss is screaming at her… the next frame is a guy that is yelling over the phone… Telenovelas are using highly dramatic situations and a rapid changing of frames for the viewers to be caught in their chairs waiting for the next thing to happen…. I can’t explain what is it that she is so found of to watch at..

I went in the bedroom… I feel pleasantly warm and light… the mountain scenery is rolling in my head… bird of prey, fly so high… the sun is slowly setting down… the scenery is breath taking.. then it didn’t rained and the sky was clean of any cloud… it is painted red by the setting sun…bird of prey….

A sense of endless capability is building in me… I feel I can do anything is I made up my mind… I can enter the masters I want.. I can shape my life… I can pass any problems…
And I know it is a real feeling…cause I can feel it even now… omnipotence… it is inside me..

I return to the tv, I feel again laughing… it seems so simple and futile to watch telenovelas… they are not laughing they just stay lost… suddenly I realize that the sound from the tv is not going out right.. it’s like a broken audio tape that repeats the previous sounds and then works ok a bit and then again the same… “The TV is broken, can’t you hear that??!?!?” I was saying to them still laughing… they seem like not hearing me..

I return to the bedroom … the sun is still doing its painting job over the clouds… I am not sleepy and I am aware of myself fully… it’s about 2100h and I slowly the effect disappear…

Before leaving NL I caught on TV Elements of Life http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2fNloJAge0… it made me look for it when home .. now this is the Dutch national anthem in the memory of this experience.. Its positive attitude and the power of life inspired by so many people joining for the same sounds…

I am feeling inspired and my energy is replenished to follow my dream.