why are we lying to ourselves

I am trying a feeling that, I know that it had been there forever and that I had been trying to avoid it all the time... a feeling that I want to confirm but I am afraid to do it…..because this feeling is denying my self image - the image that I had created about me.

All the things that are coming into contradiction to the things we believe about ourselves are immediately repressed and restricted by our mind. We can even lie to ourselves in order to be in accordance to the self portrait we created.

self-portrait alias self-image = a series of patterns taken from different places that we would like to define as ourselves